My mid-life bucket list crisis

I don't know what is worse, having "dreams" or having dreams.  On one hand you nave the kind of dreams where you eat spicy foods before bed and while you are in a deep REM sleep you imagine walking curio cabinets with teeth throwing milkshakes at you and threatning your life and on the other hand you have dreams of things you want to accomplish before you die.  I keep hearing this term "Bucket List" thrown around and I know it was a movie with Morgan freeman and Jack Nicholson and I know that people are starting to throw this term around like it's confetti.  Maybe the reason i hear it more and more is that I'm looking down the barrel at 4-0!  A lot of my friends have turned this age, but they don't seem any different they haven't run out and bungee jumped off the Mackinac Bridge or bought a Ferrari or anything so why am I all of the sudden feeling this "Bucket List pressure?  i'm not dying, well I suppose we are all dying but I'm not actively dying, okay i'm not particpating in the advancement of my own death... what I am saying is that i don't know of any short term limitations that have put on my life but suddenly I want to do more, I have aspirations and goals and feats and curiousities that I want fulfilled. 

The biggest one is the idea of doing Stand up Comedy again.  in the early 90's I was doing quite a few open mic nights, writing material cponstantly and I even won a few contests; it was by far the biggest rush of my life.  No drug or drink matched what stand up gave me.  The feeling of thinking of something, writing it, performing and perfecting it was the most intoxicating thing I ever felt.  I just stopped doing it; life happened, I moved up north, I had kids and i took over a children's theater company.  The theater company gives me many opportunities to be creative, don't get me wrong, I have lived a charmed life for a guy who didn't even finish his Associate's at Lansing Community College; for 13 glorious years, I have written, developed and performed my company's plays and toured the entire state of Michigan.  I have enjoyed my time very much and hope to continue it.  Now as my children get older and my life gets longer in the tooth I feel myself yearning for that outlet, thirsting for the idea of getting onstage and sharing my big boy thoughts for a change.  I love dressing up like a dog and a crab and making children smile but I really do some material that makes people think, makes them laugh, hell it may even make them recoil but I truly want a shot at it again, who knows I may get up there and fall flat on my face but I know this it is something I need to do.  I don't know if there's money in it for me but if there is so be it, but I at least have to get up there and do another Open Mic, to feel that kind of pressure is like nothing else in the world.  So, call it a Bucket List move, call it a mid-life crisis but coming soon I will be doing a 3-5 minute set of material in a comedy club... more to come.